42: March 2010

there's so much going through my mind right now. not quite sure whether i can make words out of them, but i think i know whom exactly i lost faith in.

throughout my early childhood, i've been told, especially during islamic classes that islam is a complete religion, whereby it encompasses almost everything there is to think of. that islam is an "ad-din" or a way of life, i quote mysteryman. maybe im a bit of a fallibilist, and an inquisitive one too. maybe i like testing out everything, trying to prove something otherwise before accepting it. maybe that's just the way i am. and perhaps, while being all that, i might have been rude, offensive, or even inconsiderate if you really want to go that far. it wasn't the best thing to do writing that post "equivocal equality" in such manner, because now i look back at it and given the same position i put others in, i would find it insulting, demeaning and lost, without anything vivid of what i really wanted to say. this i hope, would make it up to you people.

like i said, it's in my nature to question things, see how they work. partly, that's the reason why my toys don't survive my childhood years, mostly, i just can't take care of my stuff. i see something, i try to understand it, i test it, i try to know how it works, on what principle. the same thing applies to ideologies, principles. i try to know how all these work. in a fair discovery of knowledge, or enlightenment if you want to put it that way, one need to consider an arguement from each side.

years of listening about the good side about islam, i deemed it would be redundant to agree. thus, my objection came about.

i knew something that gave me rest. that stopped me from questioning any further. and im ashamed to say i had forgotten what it was. islam indeed is a guide about living. and the koran is the guide in a concrete form. re-written, read, understood, preached and practised. the koran, if i may, is complete because it left us a room for our intellect to take part in it. it doesn't dictate what we must do. it convinces, it preaches softly. not with iron claws but with gentle words. it says what it must and it leaves the rest to our own understanding.

the koran is meant for everyone. i'll make it clear. it is meant to be read by everyone, by themselves. one's understanding of the koran must be gained directly, nothing tangential. because everyone has their own way of understanding and perception. and by that, they are held responsible of their's.

it is not right to force an idea, or teaching onto someone. the koran never does this. but sadly people are. they shove their own understanding of the koran down people's throat. the koran itself, is understood in several different major sects. what i have been told back then came from one of these sects. and i have my fair share of disagreement and objection.

i have no qualms with god or the koran. my fight is against people, who uses the koran to gain a certain position, or be entitled to a certain right, or forces his own perception onto others.

with these, i hope i have made my stand clear. and im sorry for being a complete ass in the last post. i am but a novice, and i happen to make mistakes, a lot apparently. so this is my apology to those who were and still are offended.

now, time to move on and just live with an abundance of joie de vivre.

42

3.13.13

Inglourious Basterds

a good monday....finally

messed up calendar

becoming hyde

about a boy

clarification

what's missing?

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