a brand new year will arrive once the arms of time coincide at 12. so what's new? nothing. whatever happened this year will have a rippling effect on those to come. nothing stays in the past, instead they will come back at you, be it in the form of sweet memories, or haunting nightmares, down to dire consequences of your actions or words.
i've my fair share of ups and downs of this year. so much has happened, and yet, they still feel fresh like it was from yesterday.
there are those moments which i would like to change given the chance to turn back the pendulum. but what happened, happened. let yesterday go, so you can live today, and perhaps catch tomorrow's sunrise. i don't like bringing up the past because there's nothing i can do about it and i don't live in a world where time stops.
those excuses overshadows the real reason though. i don't like the past because i never did find my place in it. i lived through it, but i lack the sense of belonging to time. it seems as if what i am today is the same as the day before. nothing changes. im still the same old me. im still nobody.
i look around and i see everything else moving, growing....while im static. clock's ticking and im still here.
what is wrong
would something still be considered morally wrong if we eliminate all the possible negative consequences. it's a big IF, and there's no way of proving that consequences can be reduced to none. but then again, religion still stands without evidence, so this theory should too.
something is considered wrong for many reasons, albeit because it goes agaisnt culture, religion, our conscience, or perhaps because of its negative impact inflicted upon us, and those around us.
here's an example. a pair of siblings of different gender, both above the age of consent had sex. they took precautionary measures to make sure it would be impossible to result in having babies. both kept it a secret. both mutually agreed to it. by any means, if real life consequences are eliminated...is incest wrong? why?
it's against human nature? against religions' teachings? against cultural values? if so, why and how?
can morality exist solely based on logic or does it still require abstract preferences?
something is considered wrong for many reasons, albeit because it goes agaisnt culture, religion, our conscience, or perhaps because of its negative impact inflicted upon us, and those around us.
here's an example. a pair of siblings of different gender, both above the age of consent had sex. they took precautionary measures to make sure it would be impossible to result in having babies. both kept it a secret. both mutually agreed to it. by any means, if real life consequences are eliminated...is incest wrong? why?
it's against human nature? against religions' teachings? against cultural values? if so, why and how?
can morality exist solely based on logic or does it still require abstract preferences?
i like...
- how a smile says everything you need to know about someone,
and how she feels for you - running till im out of breath,
so i can feel alive - cycling really fast and do the "meg-ryan",
to convince myself that im flying - walking on wet grass in the morning,
because they really are the best shoes - waking up to a text from a girl who woke up from her nightmare,
because then i'd know how much she needs me - how a stranger returns your smile,
because it makes you think that the world isnt so bad - how my first impression on people are always wrong,
because im a pessimist - knowing something new about someone,
because there's always something more - getting caught in the rain,
and feel free from everything - waking up to a rainy morning,
knowing i can always run outside and play - lying down listening to songs,
to ignore the world for a moment - acting like a kid,
to get the best out of life - switching the radio station,
just to find my favourite songs - feeling the wind rushing thru me,
it feels like nothing can stop me - dreaming the impossible,
because sometimes, they do happen - writing nonsense,
because there's nothing much to say - =) 's
because they mean a lot to me
of jebat and heroism
as malaysians, im sure each of us have our fair share of folklore, coming from different backgrounds, be it culturally or religiously. the story of hang tuah 5 sahabat is rather common, even more so for the malays.
the most popular of all the stories about them would be the battle between hang tuah and hang jebat i can't be bothered to recall the exact version, but so i'll just take from wikipedia.
Hang Jebat was the closest companion of the legendary Malay hero Hang Tuah. He is well known for his vengeful rebellion against the Malacca Sultan whom he served. After Hang Tuah was sentenced to death, Hang Jebat was conferred by the Sultan of Malacca with the Taming Sari, a sacred kris formerly used by Hang Tuah. Believing that Hang Tuah was unjustly murdered by the Sultan he served, Hang Jebat turned against the Sultan to avenge his friend's death. No one knew, however, except the Bendahara who went against the Sultans orders and hid Hang Tuah in a remote region of Malacca that he was still alive.
With the kris in his possession, Hang Jebat became invincible and there was not one person in the entire Malacca Empire who was capable of killing him. Hang Jebat's revenge had forced the Sultan of Malacca to abandon his palace. Jebat seduced the women of the palace and spent his days eating, drinking and sporting with them. All the warriors sent by the Sultan to challenge him were killed. Even his friend Hang Kasturi was driven out when Hang Jebat realized that the other man hadn't come to join him in merrymaking.
After learning from the Bendahara that Hang Tuah was still alive, The Sultan had him recall Hang Tuah and gave Hang Tuah full amnesty. The Sultan then ordered Hang Tuah to kill Hang Jebat. Being unquestioningly loyal to the Sultan, Hang Tuah obeyed the Sultan's bidding and went on to challenge Hang Jebat. After fighting in a battle that lasted for seven days, Hang Tuah eventually managed to reclaim the Taming Sari by tricking Hang Jebat. Although stabbed by Tuah, Hang Jebat bandaged his wounds and ran amok in the city square for three days, killing thousands of people before retreating to Tuah's house and dying in his friend's arms.
Hang Jebat's famous quote was "Raja adil raja disembah, raja zalim raja disanggah" which literally means "A fair king is a king to obey, a cruel king is a king to fight against".
what i fail to comprehend is that, why is hang tuah seen as a hero. he's nothing more than a soldier with no stand, no principle, no value....a perfect soldier, but never a hero. he didn't fight for himself when he was accused wrongly, he came back to serve the man who sentenced him to death for no reason, he blindly followed the sultan's order, and he killed his true friend, hang jebat when he tried to avenge him.
hang jebat did murder those who are innocent, but what the sultan did was no better. at least jebat stood up for his friend, even at the cost of being labelled a traitor. jebat was a true hero, not a perfect one, but a hero nonetheless. tuah in contrast, was just another killing machine.
loyalty is where it is due. no point being loyal to anyone or anything if it contradicts with your values. it applies to a friend, lover, nation, kings or whatever tax-eating-creatures they are referred as, and even religion. of the many reasons i object the syariah law, or any other law, be it tradition or religion is because my values comes first. i would not simply be told what to do, albeit from a higher order, a higher being, a higher whatever, make me. i do not see why apostasy is prohibited, isnt it a right to choose one's faith....and to choose it again?
i don't know what others might think of my perception of the jebat and tuah legend.....but i do know what i will tell my kids in the years to come.....and i bet you know who'll be the hero
the most popular of all the stories about them would be the battle between hang tuah and hang jebat i can't be bothered to recall the exact version, but so i'll just take from wikipedia.
Hang Jebat was the closest companion of the legendary Malay hero Hang Tuah. He is well known for his vengeful rebellion against the Malacca Sultan whom he served. After Hang Tuah was sentenced to death, Hang Jebat was conferred by the Sultan of Malacca with the Taming Sari, a sacred kris formerly used by Hang Tuah. Believing that Hang Tuah was unjustly murdered by the Sultan he served, Hang Jebat turned against the Sultan to avenge his friend's death. No one knew, however, except the Bendahara who went against the Sultans orders and hid Hang Tuah in a remote region of Malacca that he was still alive.
With the kris in his possession, Hang Jebat became invincible and there was not one person in the entire Malacca Empire who was capable of killing him. Hang Jebat's revenge had forced the Sultan of Malacca to abandon his palace. Jebat seduced the women of the palace and spent his days eating, drinking and sporting with them. All the warriors sent by the Sultan to challenge him were killed. Even his friend Hang Kasturi was driven out when Hang Jebat realized that the other man hadn't come to join him in merrymaking.
After learning from the Bendahara that Hang Tuah was still alive, The Sultan had him recall Hang Tuah and gave Hang Tuah full amnesty. The Sultan then ordered Hang Tuah to kill Hang Jebat. Being unquestioningly loyal to the Sultan, Hang Tuah obeyed the Sultan's bidding and went on to challenge Hang Jebat. After fighting in a battle that lasted for seven days, Hang Tuah eventually managed to reclaim the Taming Sari by tricking Hang Jebat. Although stabbed by Tuah, Hang Jebat bandaged his wounds and ran amok in the city square for three days, killing thousands of people before retreating to Tuah's house and dying in his friend's arms.
Hang Jebat's famous quote was "Raja adil raja disembah, raja zalim raja disanggah" which literally means "A fair king is a king to obey, a cruel king is a king to fight against".
what i fail to comprehend is that, why is hang tuah seen as a hero. he's nothing more than a soldier with no stand, no principle, no value....a perfect soldier, but never a hero. he didn't fight for himself when he was accused wrongly, he came back to serve the man who sentenced him to death for no reason, he blindly followed the sultan's order, and he killed his true friend, hang jebat when he tried to avenge him.
hang jebat did murder those who are innocent, but what the sultan did was no better. at least jebat stood up for his friend, even at the cost of being labelled a traitor. jebat was a true hero, not a perfect one, but a hero nonetheless. tuah in contrast, was just another killing machine.
loyalty is where it is due. no point being loyal to anyone or anything if it contradicts with your values. it applies to a friend, lover, nation, kings or whatever tax-eating-creatures they are referred as, and even religion. of the many reasons i object the syariah law, or any other law, be it tradition or religion is because my values comes first. i would not simply be told what to do, albeit from a higher order, a higher being, a higher whatever, make me. i do not see why apostasy is prohibited, isnt it a right to choose one's faith....and to choose it again?
i don't know what others might think of my perception of the jebat and tuah legend.....but i do know what i will tell my kids in the years to come.....and i bet you know who'll be the hero
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