tick.....

a brand new year will arrive once the arms of time coincide at 12. so what's new? nothing. whatever happened this year will have a rippling effect on those to come. nothing stays in the past, instead they will come back at you, be it in the form of sweet memories, or haunting nightmares, down to dire consequences of your actions or words.

i've my fair share of ups and downs of this year. so much has happened, and yet, they still feel fresh like it was from yesterday.

there are those moments which i would like to change given the chance to turn back the pendulum. but what happened, happened. let yesterday go, so you can live today, and perhaps catch tomorrow's sunrise. i don't like bringing up the past because there's nothing i can do about it and i don't live in a world where time stops.

those excuses overshadows the real reason though. i don't like the past because i never did find my place in it. i lived through it, but i lack the sense of belonging to time. it seems as if what i am today is the same as the day before. nothing changes. im still the same old me. im still nobody.

i look around and i see everything else moving, growing....while im static. clock's ticking and im still here.