day one

to my dear friend(s),

we've known each other for years. i wouldn't say that we look like the best of friends, but everything is not what is seems. despite the distance, the different time zones, the busy college life and etc, i don't think this friendship would have any difficulties. meeting up hasn't been easy since we left school, but once we do, i feel no wall between us, no gap, no feeling of awkwardness. it's like we just saw each other yesterday.

life wouldn't be the same without you. you helped shape me into who i am today. you got me through the hard times and you made the good times much more memorable. you made me see life from a different point of view. sometimes, you drive me to excel, to push myself further because i know you have faith in me and i hate to disappoint you. the best part about us is that we never fight about anything. that is, if memory serves me right. maybe you don't really know where im getting at and i haven't the slightest clue either. i just want you to know it's been a pleasure having you around.

i wish the the best life has to offer, in whatever it is that you're doing. you might have to go somewhere i can't follow, but if you need help, i'll be there. and one day, when we've got we're looking for, i really hope we could sit down and have a laugh about the good old days. till then, good luck.

you're lucky friend,
benjamin

30 days letters challenge

Day 1 — Your Best Friend
Day 2 — Your Crush
Day 3 — Your parents
Day 4 — Your sibling (or closest relative)

Day 5 — Your dreams
Day 6 — A stranger

Day 7 — Your Ex-boyfriend/girlfriend/love/crush
Day 8 — Your favorite internet friend
Day 9 — Someone you wish you could meet
Day 10 — Someone you don’t talk to as much as you’d like to
Day 11 — A Deceased person you wish you could talk to
Day 12 — The person you hate most/caused you a lot of pain
Day 13 — Someone you wish could forgive you
Day 14 — Someone you’ve drifted away from
Day 15 — The person you miss the most
Day 16 — Someone that’s not in your state/country
Day 17 — Someone from your childhood
Day 18 — The person that you wish you could be
Day 19 — Someone that pesters your mind—good or bad
Day 20 — The one that broke your heart the hardest
Day 21 — Someone you judged by their first impression
Day 22 — Someone you want to give a second chance to
Day 23 — The last person you kissed
Day 24 — The person that gave you your favourite memory
Day 25 — The person you know that is going through the worst of times
Day 26 — The last person you made a pinky promise to
Day 27 — The friendliest person you knew for only one day
Day 28 — Someone that changed your life
Day 29 — The person that you want tell everything to, but too afraid to
Day 30 — Your reflection in the mirror

let's see if i can really do this

RE : anonymous

its good to hear that u r 'trying' to learn the koran. just a piece of advice, no use of having the knowledge yet u look like u have none.

yeah, i get what u try to say bout the geo thing. is the same to pI. we learnt it in schools. its just that geo is from form 1 to 3 but pI, for us is up to form 6. cuz there is more to learn. yet we were just using text book.. if we were using korang, i guess the topic of this post would be different right? theres no religious studies that are complimentary in medic or law schools. they are optional.
talking bout interest. sorry for saying this directly. its true that students might get interest in geo for example later on. from ur point of view, what the heck bout religions studies right? yet if u widen ur scope of view, u'll see that its just u that is not interested in pI. most people in ur college for example has deep affections towards religions. people actually enjoy it.. some might not but they still learn it cuz of fear towards god.

about the test, its not to test ur faith. duh.. let me ask u a basic question. whats the purpose of test? its to assess ur knowledge. driving test for example, do those who failed their computer test signifies that they are lack in driing skills? the pI test is actually is to make sure that u study the syllabus text. pendidikan jasmani test for example, its not actually a test right? we all know that it is not important as our final year exam doesn't incude the test mark.. so, whats the average score? how many of us study for it? so, back to the topic, the test is to ensure that we study the agama islam.



i do not understand your advice at all. sorry.

i do not understand why do you have to take my question as an attack and get all offensive. but it's fun reading what you write.

i do not understand how religious studies can be "complimentary" as opposed to optional. try compulsory.

i do not understand the need to bring up religious studies in medic or law school. i mentioned it to prove that geography is taught at lower levels of education, where students haven't really specify their course of studies. once one have enrolled into a medical or law school, geography is useless in the pursuit of becoming a doctor or lawyer. my "complain" about the test of pendidikan islam was about how the syllabus is decided and what is the ministry of education trying to assess from students.

i did not say religious studies are useless. i was just questioning how it would be carried out, and in this case, specifically on the use of textbooks instead of the koran itself. i have no affection for religion, or so you would assume safely behind your anonymity, but like i said, it doesn't stop me from trying to learn more about it. not because of im pious, or i want to get closer to God, or fear towards God. i do it because i want to know. which is the exact same intention i had when i asked that question in the previous post.

i was being sarcastic, but i guess it doesn't work on you. yes, the test is not about faith. it's about everything in the syllabus. if you fail the computer test in a driving test, it does mean you are lacking in driving skills. let's not forget driving skills includes the ability to judge a situation or traffic, or road conditions and signboards. being able to drive means nothing if you don't know what the sign means.

so if the test is to ensure that we study islam, what does it assess? pendidikan is a whole lot more holistic than pengetahuan btw. to be "didik" well, is more than to be smart. it's to be well mannered as well,...like introducing yourself when speaking to someone. so if it is pengetahuan, or pengajian islam, i would have no objection. but pendidikan islam does not include only knowledge. so is pendidikan islam, its syllabus and its tests coherent?

i didn't remove your post. i just got an email notification. it didnt even come up on my page.

and it just hit me...

why is it that our Pendidikan Islam uses textbooks by the education ministry and not the Quran itself?

that's like playing Gran Turismo for your driving lesson.
selamat hari raya to everyone. wishing you the best. and do heed to those delicious ketupat and rendang. they have been waiting for you. heck, that alone makes fasting worth it. =)

utusan malaysaja

" UMNO-owned Malay daily Utusan Malaysia urged that cyber-criminals who insult Islam on the internet be sent into exile and be taught how to live in a multi-racial and multi-religious country"

for more info, click ibettthisdudemadethisuptosoundpoliticallybiased

1. so a multireligious society must only have tolerance for ONE religion and not others? so those who insult other religions and relate their practice and identities to dogs get away? only those insulting Islam is met with punishment?

2. how does living in exile going to teach someone to live in a society, especially one that is multiracial and multireligious? do you think anyone from Lost can ever assimilate themselves into the conventional society ever again? they might have to really end it if they do.

3. reminds me of an MP who suggested that people who are HIV positive should be exiled. hmm, i see an uncanny consistency and pattern.

happy (belated) independence day

yes, i did not celebrate our 53rd independence day in any way, be it giving this god forsaken nation a thought or two or simply writing a post reminding myself that independence is about malaysia and not barisan nasional. but the line between the two is getting blurred. BN has been ruling malaysia since independence. it basically shaped malaysia into what we see today.

and it's members consists of a guy who has his own sex tape, another involved in the linggam tape. it has conducted operasi lalang in the name of national security. it has seen peaceful rallies being treated with water cannons, tear gas, riot shields, and endless arrests. it has seen a principal making racist remarks during the holy month of ramadhan and got away with it. it has seen that a particular non-muslim been told not to enter a surau without the consent of selangor islamic religious council when the prophet himself has never stopped anyone from entering a mosque as long as they carry no ill will. it has seen a lawyer strangling himself in the courtroom in his bid to prove that one can strangle himself and die. it has seen enough sodomy trials to outrun Lost.

need i say more?

looking back, malaysia is no longer just about ali, muthu and ah chong living happily, harmoniously together. i desperately wish this can come true but with so many scars, can we really be blind enough to look past them if we can't even look at another skin colour without prejudice. malaysia is not just about all the races living in tolerance and peace when things are going good. because frankly, things aren't. and who do we have to thank for that?

i have forgotten what malaysia is about, and perhaps what independence means to me. i have lost my faith in religion a long time ago. now im losing faith in this country. i just need to see a glimpse of hope that malaysia can be a country where ali would stand up for muthu and ah chong when that bitch makes another racist remark about them.
i need to see yasmin ahmad's commercials again.

pardon the vulgarity, it's 4am and i still believe in the freedom of speech.

correction

you know how it's like to be invisible in your own dream?

it feels kinda fucked up