i suppose everyone doesnt like that feeling when they are leaving their comfort zone. for 17 years, my comfort zone was home....and my family. nope, didnt go to boarding school, didnt go anywhere without my parents. leaving home for matrix was something rather drastic in my life. considering the fact that i dont do laundry, iron, or any house chores.....apart from vacuuming and wiping every single surface in my room whenever exam approaches, or any major events instead of studying. back in matrix, i was still ok with the new environment, because i took into consideration that home is half an hour away....20 minutes if im driving, and if i dont like matrix, i can always opt to go for jpa. plus, i can go back home every week. with this in mind, leaving home wasnt hard, because i never really left it in the first place, considering the fact that i send my laundry home, and because i had an alternative should i hate matrix....which is jpa.
orientation week in matrix made things better, as i found a few friends who are equally insane and hyper at the same time. blending in with everyone isnt my thing, but at least i wasnt the odd one out there. some said their first impression of me was that i was proud....maybe due to the fact that i rarely start a conversation or reply in the least amount of words possible. but things got better. i made more friends, i know more lecturers, i can cope with the studying method there. i was already adjusting to the new atmosphere......i found my comfort zone again in matrix. and thats why matrix didnt feel so bad. well, of course im not the most popular guy in the campus, nor i had a buddy to go makan dinner with or even a friend to go to the library with everyday. but that didnt really matter plainly because i was used to solitude in certain ways.....those ways. point is......i made myself home.
taking up the jpa offer meant that i had to change places. right now, im in ktt, kolej teknologi timur, in sepang. i dont mean to exaggerate, but my first impression of this place was "oh fuck, i screwed up". orientation week was kinda of a task for the first few days....but when it reached the end, we had fun. serious fun. i may not know the names of everyone in my group, nor have i made friends out of these new acquaintances, and the ghost stories i heard from the seniors yesterday didnt make me feel any better....but for once, i think i can learn to be independent. for once, i believe i can create my sanctuary anywhere in the world. but as always, i need someone else to do my laundry and ironing.
realise
thank you for making me realise that im only human.
but it's about time for you to do the same.
give yourself a chance to be happy again
but it's about time for you to do the same.
give yourself a chance to be happy again
photo-ish mood again
things i'll never say
meet sam
meet maltose
public shower?
jet boiling water for maggi
walk and more walk
our little mascot lost her left wing
our banner
banner making process
gundams on display in gurney
i might just flip it again
HEADS
go to kolej teknologi timur in sepang for a 2 year foundation programme, pass the minimum requirement which i dont know yet, go to rcmp, royal college of medicine perak in ipoh for degree for 5 years, most likely living in the new hostel, 2 year houseman, 3 year serve govt hospital, 5 remaining years bonded with jpa, take masters. its safer this route, but A levels is going to be hard i suppose and its going to take a longer time, max 2 years extra.
TAILS
stay in matrix for one year, it's halfway through the first semester, work my ass off the get into a decent university that offers me to do medicine, most likely i'll need a 4.0, finish degree in 5 years, 2 years houseman, 3 years serve govt hospital. after that, im a free man, no bloody ten year bond with jpa. this road is way faster, but i would need to compete to get into a proper university....and im doing medicine......putting aside the fact that im a bumiputra, i would still need rather good results to do medicine. and who knows where i'll get.
gravity would resume its services on monday
go to kolej teknologi timur in sepang for a 2 year foundation programme, pass the minimum requirement which i dont know yet, go to rcmp, royal college of medicine perak in ipoh for degree for 5 years, most likely living in the new hostel, 2 year houseman, 3 year serve govt hospital, 5 remaining years bonded with jpa, take masters. its safer this route, but A levels is going to be hard i suppose and its going to take a longer time, max 2 years extra.
TAILS
stay in matrix for one year, it's halfway through the first semester, work my ass off the get into a decent university that offers me to do medicine, most likely i'll need a 4.0, finish degree in 5 years, 2 years houseman, 3 years serve govt hospital. after that, im a free man, no bloody ten year bond with jpa. this road is way faster, but i would need to compete to get into a proper university....and im doing medicine......putting aside the fact that im a bumiputra, i would still need rather good results to do medicine. and who knows where i'll get.
gravity would resume its services on monday
if coffee doesnt wake you up, this will
1. Besides your lips, where is the favourite spot to get kissed?
i have no idea
2. How do you feel when you wake up this morning?
*headbang!
3. Who was the last person you took a photo with?
dont remember....no seriously.
4. Would you consider yourself spoiled?
very, at least relatively
5. Will you ever donate blood?
yea i guess.
6. Have you ever had a best friend who was of the opposite sex?
err....does it matter? duh
7. Do you want someone to be dead?
yes, dead people. they should stay that way
8. What does your last text message say?
have fun packing? haha
9. What are you thinking right now?
why did i get tagged?
10. Do you want someone to be with you right now?
yes, santa claus and his flying sleigh. im gonna need it on thursday.
11. What was the time you went to bed last night?
don't remember
12. Is someone on your mind right now?
yea, the person who tagged me
13. Who was the last person who text you?
if the chatbox counts....it would be vkei. haha
ten lucky person to do this quiz:
1. albert einstein
2. leonardo da vinci
3. mother theresa
4. mahatma gandhi
5. hitler
6. ryukendo...*smacks forehead. hahahaha!
7. mussolini
8. fujio f. fujiko
9. santa claus
10. enzo ferrari
14. who is 2 having relationship with?
he's dead
15. is 3 a male or female?
the latter la
16. if 7 and 1 get together, would it be good
*falls over. HAHAHAHAHA.
17. what is 1 studying about?
*was relativity and stuff
18. when was the last time you chatted with them?
never
19. is 4 single?
he was married
20. say smtg about 2
thanks to him, dan brown is rich.
21. what do you think 3 and 6 being together?
HAHAHAHAHAHAH * i really cant take it anymore la
22. describe 9
he's a fiction
23. what will you do if 7 and 6 fight?
*stomach hurts. HAHAHAHAAHAHAHAAHHA. adoi la
24. do you like 8?
yea, comic wont be the same without him.
i have no idea
2. How do you feel when you wake up this morning?
*headbang!
3. Who was the last person you took a photo with?
dont remember....no seriously.
4. Would you consider yourself spoiled?
very, at least relatively
5. Will you ever donate blood?
yea i guess.
6. Have you ever had a best friend who was of the opposite sex?
err....does it matter? duh
7. Do you want someone to be dead?
yes, dead people. they should stay that way
8. What does your last text message say?
have fun packing? haha
9. What are you thinking right now?
why did i get tagged?
10. Do you want someone to be with you right now?
yes, santa claus and his flying sleigh. im gonna need it on thursday.
11. What was the time you went to bed last night?
don't remember
12. Is someone on your mind right now?
yea, the person who tagged me
13. Who was the last person who text you?
if the chatbox counts....it would be vkei. haha
ten lucky person to do this quiz:
1. albert einstein
2. leonardo da vinci
3. mother theresa
4. mahatma gandhi
5. hitler
6. ryukendo...*smacks forehead. hahahaha!
7. mussolini
8. fujio f. fujiko
9. santa claus
10. enzo ferrari
14. who is 2 having relationship with?
he's dead
15. is 3 a male or female?
the latter la
16. if 7 and 1 get together, would it be good
*falls over. HAHAHAHAHA.
17. what is 1 studying about?
*was relativity and stuff
18. when was the last time you chatted with them?
never
19. is 4 single?
he was married
20. say smtg about 2
thanks to him, dan brown is rich.
21. what do you think 3 and 6 being together?
HAHAHAHAHAHAH * i really cant take it anymore la
22. describe 9
he's a fiction
23. what will you do if 7 and 6 fight?
*stomach hurts. HAHAHAHAAHAHAHAAHHA. adoi la
24. do you like 8?
yea, comic wont be the same without him.
photo-ish mood
somewhere in semarak
theres more than one way to play mahjong
me, my shoe, and songkhla
rock+wave=splash/couldnt get any closer
that would be dad being left behind
studying method for dummies
best way to spend 6 bucks in kl
grandma's stuff
somewhere in hatyai
reason for newly found phobia
lasted for 5days in matrix with only a cup of coins. should have seen the stares when i was paying 4 bucks with only 20cent coins.
this carcinogenic fungus-looking substance apparently disrupts my phone calls.
lecture hall, which is full of the white foam
cute i guess, thats why i took it
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