lesson 2
when life pulls a joke on you, all you can do is laugh
because what's the point in making others worried, right?
hey, i'll stop asking k?
because what's the point in making others worried, right?
hey, i'll stop asking k?
lesson learnt
i used to believe that i can always do something, change something i didn't like, and do better if i just put in more hours and effort into it. i used to believe that impossible is nothing. i refused to give up, and to follow the course fate has set me for. i ignored what everyone said, i thought, i can always do something, regardless how little the effects would be, i wanted to make a difference. so much for my raison detre.
it doesn't matter if it was about scoring higher for add math, or running a bit further than usual, or jumping an inch higher than the day before. i always had this mindset, that i could do something about everything. destiny and fate meant nothing to me. i wouldn't even let the god factor interfere. i make my luck....no matter what happens, if it's me thats rolling the dice, then nothing else matters.
lately i realised something. i came to accept that there are certain things that i can never change afterall. i lost my grandad recently, and i was in college. we're not close, but i wanted to do something for him....to be there. i couldn't. it just hit me.....im just a tiny chess piece in this mad world. there's just so much i can do.....the rest is up to the big guy. im still an agnostic by virtue. big guy isnt an omnipotent being controlling the universe, he's just randomness, coincidence, the sum of cause and effect of every single action taken by everyone.
perhaps.....the truth is, life is indeed larger than ourselves. this time, i have to accept it. ngeh
because my hands would be in my pockets this time...
it doesn't matter if it was about scoring higher for add math, or running a bit further than usual, or jumping an inch higher than the day before. i always had this mindset, that i could do something about everything. destiny and fate meant nothing to me. i wouldn't even let the god factor interfere. i make my luck....no matter what happens, if it's me thats rolling the dice, then nothing else matters.
lately i realised something. i came to accept that there are certain things that i can never change afterall. i lost my grandad recently, and i was in college. we're not close, but i wanted to do something for him....to be there. i couldn't. it just hit me.....im just a tiny chess piece in this mad world. there's just so much i can do.....the rest is up to the big guy. im still an agnostic by virtue. big guy isnt an omnipotent being controlling the universe, he's just randomness, coincidence, the sum of cause and effect of every single action taken by everyone.
perhaps.....the truth is, life is indeed larger than ourselves. this time, i have to accept it. ngeh
because my hands would be in my pockets this time...
*puts down chemistry book*
exam starts on monday. holidays start on wed after the bio papers. planning starts yesterday.
study? oh yea, that too.
i so hate chemistry now
study? oh yea, that too.
i so hate chemistry now
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