this may be weird coming from me, but tm has been better lately. my connection has been down twice in the past 5 days.....and it only took them a day each time to get it fixed. or.....the line has a mind of its own and decides when to be reliable according to moods.
either way, im here, and actually typing something longer than a few lines or put some photos. been lazy lately.....AHEEEM busy! not that theres nothing to post, but its no big stuff....like i didnt get selected for national service. its funny that the word "tahniah" can actually make people depressed and worried. so im happy to be able to spend some time in this dead town while my buddies go to the rest of malaysia firing m16s.....hopefully at megatron, and that racist and that extremist.....now i feel like going if i can do that.
my initial plan if i got ns was to just spend 3 months in some unknown place, get some money, and shape up. its gonna be 3 months without anything civilized, so maybe i'd have more discipline to get those muscles pumping.....but thats not happening is it? so im gonna remain as a potato couch for the rest of my life.....which has been shorten due to the discovery that coke is killing me. dont think it matter that much....for now at least.
now, im having my holidays, and the only plan i have is to finish reading every single revision book i got for the trials....but thats gonna fail because im here typing. i cant seem to find the most condusive time to study. the evenings are so hot, switching the aircon on is just a waste of money cos i'll fall asleep. at nite, i'll be far too sleepy to hold on to any book for more than 1 hour. this has been going on for days, and i dont see myself being productive.
in fact, i havent been doing anything else lately. i got too lazy to actually look for a decent present for a friend, been too lazy to bother about homework, been injured again in pj......trust me, that hurt a lot, been splurging way too fast till my money-making-jeans cant cope. u dont believe me? everytime i wear them, everytime, there's money inside.....the 1st time was 10 bucks, last week was 5, yesterday was 1, hours earlier 5 bucks. its not my money, cos im kinda broke now. so have to wear them more often now eh?
lately, sara bareilles's tread water has been ringing in my head. its one of her live performances i guess, and im obsess with it now. has been listening to it over and over again. treadwater is just another simple song, sang all alone by sara, and the she's playing the only musical instrument, the piano.
why the obsession? put on your mp3, lie down anywhere, close your eyes. then you'd be imagining the sky getting gloomy, the sun hiding itself behind the covers of the fluffy clouds, with its rays crawling out of the small openings of the big white canopy, and you in the middle of the lake in a small boat, carried away by the gentle touch of the waves, with slight drizzles of rain falling down, unaffected by the whistles of the wind that barely sets the floating leaves sailing to the boat. now, you'd really wish you have a camera at that time. well you dont need one.....because thats what memories are for.......to put a smile on your face......for free.
the world is full of free things, its just that we dont know how to treasure it.
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