somehow here is gone

i said i drew that line, and yet now im standing on it.
i thought i can maintain the distance, and yet, its me who was closing in
i thought i'll never fall into that trap, and yet, i let myself get caught
i told them it's nothing, but i guess i lied
i thought it was mechanical, and yet i can't figure it out now
i told myself it wouldnt be anything, and now, it's like everything
i tried to act like a gentleman, now im calling myself an opportunist
i thought honesty would solve the problem, so why am i still putting up a facade
i built this wall with only windows, but now theres an open door
i was expecting, hoping for another answer.............because it'd kept things simple


its like a magic trick i suppose.
the pledge was nothing out of the ordinary,
the turn was full of hints and clues, yet no one was looking,
and the prestige is how it is supposed to end, with a pleasant surprise.
but of course, in life, or magic tricks, or anything else............
shit happens.