reflecting

what did i just do?
why did i do it?
what was i thinking?
why must it happen at that time?
who am i kidding?
why did i told her that?
why did i get it, not him?
was it justified?
why didnt i just switch it off?
why i didnt ignore it?
what else could it possibly meant?
was it wrong?
was i running away?
did i do it to be someone?
am i a nobody?
should i have just left it the way it was?
was it my fault for being persistent?
what was i trying to prove?
why didnt i just shut up, for once, just zip my mouth?
what else was there to do?
whats left to do?
what should i do?
need i involve others in it?
what did i miss?
what was i looking at?
why cant i do that?
what would she think?
why am i making a big fuss out of 6 sentences?
was it worth asking?
maybe it is.......time will tell

and that was only during add math tuition, imagine, add math + nonsensical thoughts = 2 hours of pure torment!!!